Friday, February 13, 2015

Losing Someone to Measles.

I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face. Today feels like a horrible flash back to 1990. A measles outbreak. They don't know if there was a bad vaccine or if people just didn't get vaccinations. My sisters schools are wanting to vaccinate all the high school students whether they had been vaccinated or not. But my sister Tammy didn't get one. They turned her away. They said the grade school kids where not at risk..What the hell?!?!?!

Not at risk. How can they not be at risk if they have brothers or sisters in middle school and high school and they think they are at risk. I believe it was the 18th of Feb ( may days could be off just a bit it was a horrible time). It was a Friday and it was the day they had deemed okay to vaccinate the elementary school students. Because last week you where only at risk if you where in 5th grade or high now like magic that has changed. Idiots. That never should have been that way. However there is a snow day. No school, no shots. Late that evening my sister Tammy started to not feel good. Nothing major though it seemed like a cold.

By Sunday she started to run a fever and just wanted to sleep a lot, yep you guessed it. She had measles. It all happened really fast from the time she showed sings of not feeling good till the time she went to the Doctor on Tuesday and was sent right to the hospital. Her measles were so bad they developed into Pneumonia with it. They ended up putting her on a respirator and I'll spare all the details but it got really bad and at some point it wasn't working. They had to rush my sister to the children hospital in Detroit Michigan. She went into the hospital in Grand Rapids Michigan on the 22nd of Feb and by the 27th of Feb she was gone.. GONE GONE GONE!!

All you people who choose to not vaccinate let me explain to you what Gone means. No more hearing her laugh and sing silly songs, No more seeing her smile, no more seeing her dress in some of those wild silly paints she liked to wear. No more hugging her, kissing her, whipping away her tears or telling her I love here. NO MORE HEARING HER TELL ME SHE LOVES ME!!!
No more little girl stiff that an 11 year old likes to do. Take a moment to absorb that. Take a moment to imagine your child ripped right out of our arms, gone you can never feel their hair in your fingers, hear their amazing voice, smell their clothing as you fold it, pick them up a surprise at the store for doing something great at school.

The world as you know it is OVER. Its OVER. You can never get those moments back. You can never get a person back that dies. Imagine a pretty white and gold casket being toted out of a church, cherubs on the corners for the Paw bearers to hold on to as its loaded into a long cold black car. Imagine standing in a cemetery on a cold day numb from the emotional pain, numb from the cold March day. Watching as they lower your loved one into a cold dark hole.

Imagine hearing your mother beg for someone to put a blanket of your dead sister because she going to get cold. Put your self in my mothers shoes. Your baby is now dead. People standing all around crying, grieving, longing for another moment, longing for that moment you had last were you got to hold that person. That is all you will ever be able to do again. Long, long to hear, smell , touch and see them.
I will never ever forget how she looked. I will never forget the long drive to Detroit, seeing her one last time hooked up to machines, that moment when they told me she was gone and I didn't want to believe it. I will never ever forget how cold the bathroom wall felt as I smack my head into it out of disbelief and anger, or my Aunt Robins hands on my shoulders pulling me away from the wall. My little sister is really dead.

I miss her every day and she has been gone for many years. 1990 was so long ago but today it seems here.
Yep vaccination is a choice. Its your choice, I ask you this though.. Where are you getting your education to make the choice not to do it? Is it online? Is it from a Hollywood mom who was wrong and than came back to say she was but not nearly as much effort into that as there was to get people to think a vaccination caused her son to have Autism. Were did she get her info? Some idiot doctor who has since had is medical license pulled!!!!http://healthland.time.com/2010/05/24/doctor-behind-vaccine-autism-link-loses-license/
 Yes he did.. Why because he single-handedly cased a lot of the issues we have now because of a bogus paper he published.. Yes I said bogus. 

Talk to your health department, talk to your doctor, talk to a scientist. Talk to educated people who know what they are talking about, not some twit playboy actress who was WRONG!! You do know her son doesn't even have autism right? Education, Education, Education......



Please vaccinate your child because your not just putting your child at risk, you are risking the life of 100's , 1000's of other children....







Tammy Merie  I will never ever forget you!!! I love you and watching all of this play our is breaking my heart all over again. I Hope that if nothing else something good comes from all of this.