First month down

So first month down... Lost 8lbs total. Need to wrap my head around that because It seems like It should be so much more. But Avg of 2lbs a week is actually really healthy weight loss.

What it really comes down to is I was hoping for like 10 or 15lbs the first month. But it's all good. I'm losing every week and that is what is important.

I might take my measurements tomorrow. If I can find where I wrote the first ones. Sigh. I should have written them in my planner. But you know that whole you don't like what you see so you try not to look again.

I often wonder if we see ourselves how we really are? Do we see ourselves bigger or smaller? Do I look older to myself than what other people see? That one I know is the case as people tell me all the time I Look like I'm 30/35 and I'm 49... I think because I am seeing the aging I notice the fine lines they don't.

So moving forward.... I don't know if I should set a weight loss goal for myself.  I have been on a yo-yo far too long with diets and I fear if I start to do that and I don't make one I will be back to feeling like I did when I dieted so many times over the years.
I am also still wondering if I should just get the sleeve. Maybe the weight would come off faster. But surgery. Surgery can be tricky, scary and just because I had a friend who is having no problems after hers doesn't mean I won't.  She can pretty much eat what she wants she just gets full fast.
I have talked to others who can no longer eat many of the foods they love because they get sick if they do.

 I hate that weight has filled my life with a constant struggle since I was a teenager. Hell, my first diet was at 18 and been doing them since.. Best diet I was ever one. Mono with strep throat. I was so sick I was in the hospital. I dropped about 25/30 lbs and went from a size 10/12 to a size 5.
I really don't recommend it. It's painful, you are tired all the time for months and well guess what you gain all the weight back because you can actually eat when you couldn't eat or drink for 2 months basically. And No I would do this over again even I could. It was horrible and I don't even wish that on my enemy. But it was the one time in my entire life I could fit into a two piece.  And if you're wondering. Hell no I didn't get it on purpose.

Well is the start of another month. And I'm dosing up tomorrow. Should have today but totally forgot. I'm at 1.8 at the moment. Going up 3 clicks tomorrow. I am also going to try to go out and get some breakfast shakes or something this week. I think I'm not taking in enough calories and that makes your body feel like it's starving and it tries to hang on to the weight. So that might well be my issue. That and more water...

Okay later......

Sunday day 28 weight in

So I'm on a solid 1.8 now. And I am going to stay on that for at least a week. I lost 3lbs this week. It's a slow loss but well they say if you lose it slow you will keep it off. I can only hope ...

Not having too many issues with the meds at all. But I have noticed headaches. I'm going to keep an eye out on that.

Not a lot to report. I would say for the most part I'm going pretty good. I'm sure I would lose more if I could work out. But well. I'm doing my best to make good food choices and not eat too much of things that work against what I'm doing.

Heck, we went to DQ the other day because OMG they have cotton candy blizzards right now and they are my fav. Well, I got a Mini and could only eat half. So hey. that is pretty good. way less than I normally would have eaten.

Thursday day 25 Don't eat it...

So far so good....

Some things I have noticed.

So I have noticed things that I am trying to keep track of.
Anytime I eat bread I get a stomach ache or feel sick. No fun so no bread. Which is okay I don't eat it that often anyway.

If I eat after 9pm I get really bad stomach cramps. Again no fun not going to do that..

I was pretty sick for a few days but realized it was the dumb antibiotic.

I don't like shots in the arm, they hurt and seem to make me feel a bit light headed.

So I have myself up to 1.2 plus 6 clicks.. 4 clicks away from the 1.8 I need to be at.  I will be taking today's dose here in just a bit and I will go up another 2 clicks so I will be only 2 clicks away from 1.8. once I hit 1.8 I'm going to stay there for a week :)

I don't know if I have lost any weight this week. I will not know until Sunday. I am hoping so because it was pretty much a bummer to not lose any last week.

I need to work on drinking more water, more fluids in general. My mouth is dry all the time, For some reason, water just is not doing it for me right now. Like I'm tired of drinking it lol
Perhaps not drinking enough is why I'm not losing as fast as I would prefer.

I would love to lose 20lbs before Convention so before August.. And so far I need to work harder is that is going to happen. I think I need to get on a reg schedule for food because of the not hungry thing. Not eating enough is not going to help me lose either but I have such a hard time wrapping my head around that.
well off to do breakfast and yadda yadda...

Sunday.. Day 21 of my journey.. slightly bummed

So I have been on the 1.2 dose for a few days now. Seem to be doing well on it. Things I have noticed thus far are.

I can't each much in one setting even more so than before. Some things that are sweet are super sweet icky.  I notice I don't each much but am hungry on a more reg basis. Like I will eat a small amount than about 2 to 4 hours later I'm hungry again. Might take me a bit to get used to that. The doctor says its good though.. I need to lose 15 lbs for my insurance to allow for a refill. I finished my first pen today. I have 4 more. And 10 more lbs to go. I would ideally like to lose at least 20lbs before conventions in August.

Not much nausea. Sometimes about an hour after my dose, I will have some. That is subject to change when I go up again.

I weighed in today. A bit bummed because I didn't lose. However: at least I didn't gain. There is that.

I guess we will see what the next week brings.