Time to get out of the funk

I have been really depressed for sometime now. Not sharing the real reasons, trying to keep to myself. Not a good idea. And now I need to get myself out of this funk I seem to be stuck in. I have been talking to Sir and although he can't seem to wrap his mind around why I would have the issue of hurting myself, after much talking he is going to support the help I need. He can't understand why I feel depressed or anything because the way he can see it life is not really that bad. Its not that bad. However being in cronic pain does things to the way you think about yourself and other things. It just does and again that is not something you can explain to someone who has not had to live with it. I have taken some advice from my friend Gita and I did some journaling. It helped me see what I needed to do to make me feel better. So I am working on doing that. I am crocheting and its the first time in years I could do that with out being in excrusiating pain after just a little bit. I do a little at a time and I'm fine. I did a piece of artwork. The picture doesn't do it justice in anyway but here it is..

so its my goal to get back to my old self. To get back to art, to get back to some of my spirituality. And to get past some of the down times I have. Doesn't mean I will not have down times but at least now I have a list of things I can do in those down times. Today life is good. One day at a time.