So its been ups and downs.. Mostly ups I guess. I don't seem to be losing weight but I'm losing inches. Its hard when you work really hard stick to the healthy eating plan your following and you don't see the results on the scale. I think if I wasn't seeing the results on the measuring tape I think It would have been hard for me to keep going. I'm doing this though not to lose weight so much as to be healthy. The fact that I have disabilities is not helping but I'm not letting it stop me either. I can see the difference when I put my cloths on, I can see the difference in how I am feeling. The main issue I am having is that its really kicking up my pain. There are days I can hardly sleep because of the pain. I'm not complaining, I'm not even venting. I'm stating the facts. I need to get shots in my hip soon because its getting harder and harder to do some of the workouts. I'm still pushing but I'm wondering if I'm doing myself harm or not. I don't think I am but today omg today just kicked my ass so bad. I didn't sleep much last night because my right hip was killing me, and my left shoulder is killing. No matter what side I slept on it hurt. Woke up so any times. I know I need surgery on my left shoulder and I'm sure I'm going to have to take care of that this year. Which upsets me because I am doing all I can to get healthier and I'm not sure not being able to work out is going to be good for my mind or body. This year is all about getting healthy, finding me again. Finding reasons to be happy and to love who I am and deal with were I am. Meaning in michigan. I just don't like it here. Can't wait to get away from here :). I'm so blessed that I have Trever right here helping me believe in myself. He said that he is proud of me because no matter how hard of a day I'm having I push myself to work out. Even if I have to do a very low impact workout I'm doing it. The idea is two work out twice a week for 20 mins. I have been working out 20 mins three times a week, and if I'm feeling up to it tomorrow it will make 4 times this week. Hopefully this week I will see some results on the scale and if not maybe a lot more on the measuring tape. I don't have a weight I want to get down to. I have a size. I want to get down to a size 16. That would be me incredibly happy. I am on this journey... And this journey is not always easy, but even when its incredibly hard its still rewarding... I'm pretty proud of myself. Specially on days like today. I hurt all over, and I just want to curl into a ball and sleep because my fibro and bursitis are kicking my butt. But damn it.. It WILL NOT WIN!! Today is just a day, tomorrow is my future... that is what i'm looking at... Here is to facing struggles and challenges and not giving up!! Go me.